Today I met my Russian Conversation course teacher,CBETA. I said HI and coudn't think of any russian greetings then. She said:"Peiyu!" and for seconds that both of us fell into silence,soon I rode my bike away and she also turned her back on me. To be concise,I rode a bike saying hi to her while keeping moving forward.
I felt bad about myself ....I'm such a coward!!I think I don't have the face to see her.I'm really sorry that I gave up learning Russian, I AM. QQ
In fact,it wasn't my first time droping sth. out. Dancing,sketching,karate,piano,Tarot,Spanish,Japanese,Vietnamese and Russian all included. And trust me I do and sincerely feel sorry for those teachers ,my parents and myself ! They treated me so well that made me feel I'm sort of like a traitor.A traitor!!!!The kind I can't stand and hard to forgive.The funny part is I just did the same thing as a traitor would do.
Maybe I owe them an explanation. And maybe I need a closure. Now what I only have are Englsih and German.(I didn't mention Dutch because I'm not even sure about it myself) Don't wanna give them up hopefully......=(
Don't wanna feel sorry and guilty anymore....It's not fun.
I have to improve myself.
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